The findings are structured around three key themes and seven subthemes that emerged from the narratives of the participants.
Theme 1: psychosocial challenges of perinatal loss
Emotional trauma and grief
According to women who participated in the study, the period after perinatal loss was often marked by emotional trauma and grief, with the psychological impact of the loss extending beyond the aftermath of the loss and often affecting women’s mental health and overall well-being. From the narratives provided, the trauma itself manifested in several ways ranging from feelings of isolation to intense and prolonged grief. In some cases, the women who had experienced multiple losses felt discouraged to attempt to get pregnant again. In some instances, discouragement came from the community itself including family friends.
From my experience, you can go through it, because I have a friend I have grown up with since our childhood. She told me something that really hit me; she said M-6, why do you keep having children, and they keep dying? Why don’t you stop? (M-6)
Multiple losses and reproductive pressure
Some women disclosed experiencing multiple losses, often within a short time. In some cases, this was brought about by the pressure from the community to have children immediately after loss.
…you know, in Luo (ethnic group in Kenya), if you cannot bear a kid is something else; they say she gives birth to children and they die I do not know why; that is just a lot of stress and that pressure from the family, and still the children are dying…. can you see all that pressure, so I gave birth and when my husband took me to the hospital, he left me there, and they had already married him another wife. (M-14)
The findings revealed low awareness of family planning practices, especially among young women. A woman narrated how she would end up getting pregnant shortly after experiencing loss due to a lack of awareness of family planning.
So, I didn’t have parents or someone who could tell me to take it easy, or there’s something like family planning. I did not have someone who could be like a parent to me, and the mother-in-law was too harsh. So, I found myself with my husband, and no one has ever told him about something like family planning, and I ended up getting pregnant again. (M-10)
Broken relationships
From the findings, perinatal loss often led to strained relationships between partners, leading to disagreements, abandonments and in some instance divorces. Some of the women explained that they had on more than one occasion had their marriages fail due to experiencing multiple losses.
… I lost my first marriage because I was losing babies and was married to my second husband, and I got pregnant. After nine months and two weeks, I gave birth and the baby cried, they cleaned me, and I put the baby to sleep, and I took a rest after waking up my baby was dead. I was like my first marriage broke now this one has started, I questioned God. The in-law to my second husband told the man she was chased away there (in her first marriage) because her babies were dying now, she lost yours do you think marriage will work? I was like I do not have a mother and my children keep on dying, I lost my first marriage and now the second one I wanted to commit suicide, but I always thank God. (M-6)
In the cases where the marriages did not end divorce or separation, the women still went through emotional neglect from their partners who would sometimes bring in another woman into the relationship.
Sometimes, if men don’t grant a divorce, they look for another wife. They might console you, saying you will find someone else, but they have already brought another woman. So, they are not very interested in you; they are more focused on the new wife who is giving birth. You find that the attention is on the woman who is giving birth, and you feel unloved by the family. Even the love from your husband decreases; even though he still loves you, certain things diminish. (M-16)
Violence and abuse
In one case, a woman, after experiencing loss, was physically assaulted by her father, who believed that she had intentionally undergone an abortion because she did not want to give birth.
… but there was someone who left and told my father that I had an abortion. My father came with the whip in the evening, and he started whipping me, saying you prostitute, come, you are the one who knows how to abort; you see that you aborted the five-month pregnancy. I’m telling you I was beaten by my father. (M-11)
Violence and abuse were not only restricted within the household, but on multiple occasions, women were also victims of verbal and physical abuse from the community, neighbours and family members. These mainly stemmed from misconceptions and cultural beliefs that wrongly placed blame on these women for the loss of their children.
We are viewed as bad luck; some community members call us witches and they say we are sacrificing our babies to get money. (M-20)
Familial stigmatisation
Most of the women described how they were often subjected to judgement, blame and isolation which further compounded the emotional burden they had already been dealing with. Some women shared that they felt blamed or held responsible for the loss by their family members. For instance, one participant mentioned that her parents suggested that her lifestyle choices had caused her perinatal loss, exacerbating her guilt and shame. In another case, a woman explained how she was abandoned and left at the hospital by her husband whom his family had pressured to do so. She stated that.
They left me there (at the hospital), they told him (her husband) to leave that woman, her children are always dying. (M-6)
Theme 2: healthcare experiences
The participants highlighted their experiences where they believed negligence on the part of healthcare providers contributed to their tragic outcomes. These cases included slow response, lack of attention, care or basic medical support during labour and delivery. In one case, a woman in labour was not attended to, and she eventually had to deliver her child on the floor of a healthcare facility which was undignified and unhygienic. The healthcare workers remained unsympathetic, and the child later developed complications and passed away.
… After they told me I would be taken to the theatre for an operation, I started walking, and after a short while, the water broke. I went to the doctors, and they told me the baby’s way (cervix) had not opened, so I should go and walk far. I tried to talk and plead with them to help me, but they chased me, saying that I was disturbing them; when the time for me to deliver, I sat on the floor and pushed until the baby came out… (M-19)
Cases of misdiagnosis, especially during the early stages of pregnancies, were also reported by the women.
I was given drugs to treat cysts, then after some time, I started bleeding only to be told I had ectopic pregnancy. (M-4)
Women also reported encountering mistreatment and abuse from healthcare workers, leading to traumatic experiences. Women also decried that many health workers lacked sensitivity in dealing with women who had experienced loss. For instance, in one of the facilities, it was reported that women had to stay with their dead babies until the next round when morgue attendants would come to pick up the bodies. This is the same ward where other mothers who gave birth to live babies are admitted.
The one who has given birth normally is here, and the one whose child has passed away is there beside her with the deceased baby placed in a box next to her on the ground. They come to collect it later in a box. Before being discharged, they will ask you whether the baby should be buried or disposed of, as many people tend to say they should be disposed of, and many leave them. (M-18)
Additionally, women with disability were not spared by the health workers.
When I lost my baby, the doctor said even God did something good to allow your baby to die because how would you bring up a baby when you are disabled. (M-7)
Counselling was also lacking in most of the health facilities. Participants who said they were counselled had to pay an extra cost to do so. In most cases after the loss, they were treated and discharged without anyone talking to them.
At the facilities let them introduce counsellors so that the woman can know she is not alone, and these things are normal. Currently, we just leave the hospital without any form of counseling.
At the community level, although the participants said some CHVs were good and supportive, most of the women did not trust them enough to disclose their perinatal loss to the CHVs because of fear of stigma or being tagged as HIV-positive.
You will get a good CHV who can keep secret, here in our community, especially Kibra, we know that if a CHV enters a house, that lady is taking drugs (Meaning ARVs) (M-3)…
CHV don’t come unless you are close friends from the past, CHV know but in the slum if CHV come to comfort you and to support they come out with your secrets and they take them to out. (M-5)
During the discussion, the women reported that they were often taken through a complex referral system which led to significant delays in attending to them, especially during emergencies. As local facilities often did not possess the capacity to handle pregnancy complications, this often resulted in multiple referrals between facilities before one could obtain the required services. These came with additional financial costs to the women, further adding to delays in seeking services. A woman shared her ordeal of going to multiple hospitals before finally accessing the necessary health services. She narrates her case as follows:
When I gave birth, the baby was healthy at first. However, after a while, the baby’s condition started to deteriorate. I took the baby to a nearby private hospital, and when the doctor saw the baby, they wrote me a referral letter instructing me to go to the county hospital. Upon reaching the recommended health facility, they examined me and advised me to go to the referral hospital, where they had the necessary equipment. I went back home because I did not have the money needed. After three days, the baby’s condition worsened, and I was rushed to a private hospital. The doctors there said they could not help, and it was already late at night, around seven o’clock. We took an ambulance and went to a second referral Health facility. When we arrived there, they took me to the emergency room, and another doctor examined the baby. He looked at me with sadness in his eyes and said, ‘I am sorry, the baby is already gone’. (M-3)
Long waiting time was also an issue, especially in public hospitals. There were cases where women could be forced to wait longer than a week to be attended to even when the fetus had died inside the womb.
I was told to wait for 24 hours with a dead baby in my womb. (M-22)
where I was admitted there were some (pregnant women) before me who had stayed for one week with dead babies in the stomach. Imagine children dead in the stomach and nobody is attending to you. I was like I will also stay for another one week without anyone attending to me by at least they treated me but later everyone (pregnant mothers who had stayed for a week) started creating chaos. (M-16)
Women also had to endure lengthy periods times before procedures, especially after loss which further amplified the trauma and emotional distress especially when these women had to be mixed with those who had had successful deliveries. At the health facilities, women who have lost their babies were mixed with those who had successful deliveries thus adding to their trauma and stigma.
After my loss, I was admitted in the same ward with women who had given birth to live babies. It was very traumatic when the new-borns cried. I cried day and night I could not stop asking God why my baby passed away. (M-13)
Cultural perception and norms surrounding perinatal loss
Cultural perceptions and practices significantly influenced the community’s response to perinatal loss. Oftentimes, both the victims and their communities attributed such losses to witchcraft and curses, leading victims to consult traditional healers rather than seeking medical assistance.
… I went somewhere, and I heard that this woman(me) and her children (neonates)keep on dying, sorry to say this, something has grown down there, and she should be examined by the villagers because something has grown inside the vagina, and it is killing the children. So, you are sent to an elderly lady to look and wipe or do other things. (M-5)
It was mentioned that the caesarian section was forbidden in some cultures and religions as a method of delivery which meant women had to undergo natural labour even during high-risk pregnancies which could lead to further complications for both the mother and the child.
I was telling the doctor to take me to theatre, and the doctor told me, M-17, you are from the Islamic religion; do you know something called Kadar? Kadar is something that God has written, and nobody can erase it. So, you hold on until you deliver the baby… (M-17)
Furthermore, cultural beliefs played a pivotal role in shaping how communities treated women who had suffered these losses, determining whether they received essential support or encountered stigmatisation. As one woman articulated:
…the person next to you has a different tradition; this one is mourning and can’t hold a child; this one is mourning and should not walk and meet someone breastfeeding; this one is mourning, if you meet them, you should step aside, if it is a toilet, let them enter, and when they come out, then I can go in. You shouldn’t cross paths; this person is mourning, and their shadow shouldn't meet that one’s shadow with a child. (M-1)